Welcome to Following the Whispers blog

Thank you so much for taking the time to visit. Hope you enjoy your stay. I blog here whenever I feel the need. This blog was created at the time my memoir came out, in February, 2009. Its motto was: creating a life of inner peace and self-acceptance from the depths of despair. Now, my focus is sharing this journey we call life.

“Only one thing is more frightening than speaking your truth, and that is not speaking it.” Naomi Wolf

“We are called human beings, not human doings.” Wes Nisker, Buddhist teacher

“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs…(And) if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly.” Theodore Roosevelt

Monday, November 23, 2015

Goddess wisdom part 3

The next meditation was to see a cover. I couldn't. I saw a burst of light. I was told that the working title (The White Witch) is not the title. And these words: The title will come, as will the rest. Patience is hard for you. Be patient. Time doesn't matter. Your age doesn't matter. You will need to be selfish with your time and energy. It is okay. Those that love you will understand. Open yourself the way you are now. You don't need to know if I'm a character at this point. Don't worry.
My doubt: There are others much more versed in Goddess and Wicca than me.
Goddess: You. You. You. Are the one to do this work. Let go of what it is and what you think it needs to be. You will need to do mini-retreats to do this work. Don't shut down. Let this energy live and breathe inside you. Don't be afraid of losing people. If you do, it wasn't meant to be.
Even if things don't make sense, listen.
Me: This is the energy that entered me in Ireland in the magic forest.
Goddess: Singing is part of this journey. Not dancing. Sing from your heart. The notes don't matter. Who you are when you are singing does matter.
Watch out for jealousy from others of your energy. Only allow those who have your highest good at heart into your inner circle.
Me: Is this my Muse? Damned if I know. I'm done with this exercise.

See, I told you - kicking and screaming the entire six years. And this was only month two or three.

To be continued...



Tuesday, November 17, 2015

Goddess wisdom - the journey continues


Meditation with writing coach: 

Starburst of energy - I am that which you have been seeking your entire life and beyond. I am energy. I am Spirit. Sadness envelops me as this energy once again says, “Tell my story.” I have no clue if it is a person or a Spirit or a God or Goddess. All I see is blinding light. The energy is warm and glowing. “Tell my story.” “Tell my story.” 

 am what you are seeking. You are ready for this now. The memoir healed you enough to contain this and to contain me. It doesn’t matter that no one you know will understand this. Do not speak of it. Keep it private as we work together. I will come when I come. Just remain open. Trust is hard for you. It is especially hard to trust yourself. And your inner wisdom. You need to stop doubting yourself. You need to figure out how to remove the negative energies that invade you so that you can tell my story.

Do not be afraid. You are safe. You can do this . Do not listen to others. Everything you need is inside you already.

Me: This energy scares me to death, although deep down I know it is okay. It is okay for me to do this work.

This is not writing a novel. This is a spiritual journey unlike anything you’ve seen or read. It will bring together everything you’ve learned and show you so much more. Are you willing? Are you willing? Are you willing?

To be continued…



Monday, November 16, 2015

I'm at Thoughts in Progress today - book review

Mason, at Thoughts in Progress, is reviewing The Wishing Steps. Please visit her at: http://masoncanyon.blogspot.com

Thursday, November 12, 2015

a new blog post idea

After completing my blog book tour for The Wishing Steps, I realized that many seemed to be really interested in the voice that came to me in Ireland and Scotland, asking me to tell its story. During the editing process, that voice asked me to write down all the wisdom that came through while I was writing the book - both the wisdom that ended up in the story - and the wisdom that came through for me. I thought it needed to be another book, but I don't think so. At least not at this point. I'm going to share it here, on my blog. It fits - the theme of this blog from the very beginning has been following the whispers.

So, to begin, we must go back to June of 2009 - before I went to Ireland and Scotland and heard that voice. I was on a retreat with one of my closest friends on the Oregon coast, doing exercises from my favorite writing book, Mark David Gerson's Voice of the Muse. One of the exercises was to set your intention. Writing a novel appeared on that list. Then I read these words from Mark David's precious book:"If any character comes to you and demands his/her story be told through you, you can trust that all you need lies within you."

I won't share the litany of negative thoughts and feelings that came through here - but you all can use your imaginations.

Then I did an exercise called "song of your heart" from the book. The following flowed through me. It's a bit long, so if it speaks to you, forgive me for the length. It was a free-writing exercise beginning with the words: I hear the drumbeat of my heart...

I hear the drumbeat of my heart...my heart beats a rhythm and I hear its song, dance to its beat, move with its lyrics. I sing the drumbeat, beat beat thump thump. The sounds of of my heart shifts the energy of my soul as I put thoughts on paper. Hear my thoughts. Hear my words. Hear my whispers. I am calling you to me. I am your Siren Song. I am calling you to rise above your persona - the you you think you are. I am calling you to your wisdom. The lush, rich energy of all you have been, all you are and all you are meant to be. You, Karen, are a Priestess..what that means is that you know what you know, you know who you are, you know who others are and you have the wisdom to act on that knowledge and awareness. The drumbeat of your heart beats every second every minute of every day, sending you the messages you need to hear. Be still and listen. It will sing you your song, your story, your next step, your life.

I hear the drumbeat of my heart. I feel the drumbeat of my heart, telling me I am alive, filled with the creative energy of the universe and ready to soar to new heights. There are no priorities in your writing. It will flow out of you like your blood flows in and out of me. I am the center of your being Honor your mind and your other organs, but if you listen to me, you will grow. I am the drumbeat of your heart. I am your lifeblood. Within me is the heart of the heart of the heart of all things. All knowing. All pervading. All powerful. Endless and eternal.

This was Goddess speaking to me. At that moment, I didn't understand what She was saying.

To be continued...


Wednesday, November 11, 2015

What now?

First of all, I would like to honor and remember all the veterans who have served our country. I am especially remembering my Dad today. He participated in D-Day in North Africa during World War II and was hit by shrapnel that killed three of his buddies. He came home a different man, I'm told, as do many veterans. I don't think you can witness and/or participate in the kinds of things they have to do and not be changed. Thank you for helping to keep us safe.

On a more personal note, my book tour is done. Thank you once again to all who hosted me and the many others who left wonderful comments and words of support and encouragement. I am so so grateful. I've had my book signing. And so I ask myself, what now?

At this point in my life, writing isn't a career. It's just something I seem to have to do. And I love doing it (sometimes, lol). I have ideas for other things, but no impetus to begin anything just yet. I'm in what I call the cloud of unknowing (the title of a book written by an anonymous monk in the 14th century). Isn't that a wonderful phrase?

The cloud of unknowing, where I open myself up and ask Spirit, "what would you have me do?"
In the past this has been a place of huge angst. Now, it is a peaceful place because I know, just as I listened to the voice that asked me to write The Wishing Steps, whatever comes will be what I'm meant to do.


Monday, November 9, 2015

I'm at Bish's blog today

Maybe this should have been the first blog stop on my tour, but it's fitting that it's the last. At Bish's blog, I'm talking about how the story came to me. Maybe it will inspire others to follow their inner guidance. Please come join us.


Wednesday, November 4, 2015

Insecure Writer's Support Group - November - and I'm co-hosting

I'm jazzed - I've never co-hosted the ISWG before. For those of you who don't know, ISWG is the Insecure Writer's Support Group started by Alex J. Cavanaugh :

http:/www.alexjcavanaugh.blogspot.com to support those of us choosing to write. Please visit Alex to learn more and find the other participants.Here is the link to the ISWG site: http://www.insecurewriterssupportgroup.com/p/iwsg-sign-up.html

I am co-hosting with Denise Covey http://dencovey.blogspot.com, Stephen Tremp http://authorstephentremp.blogspot.com and Tyrean Martinson http://tyreanswritingspot.blogspot.com. Please make sure you go say hi to them as well.

I thought I would feel really insecure this month because my debut novel launched just a few weeks ago and I know people are reading it. But something has shifted inside me over the last few months as I prepared for this major event in my life -- the publishing of my first novel. I have grown secure inside my own skin. I've come to an understanding that the world is made up of billions of people, all of whom have their own ideas, opinions, beliefs, ways of acting and being in the world and that it is ridiculous for me to expect that everyone who reads my book will like it. Or me. This goes for my friends as well. I've recommended other books or movies to friends and they didn't like them. I used to think that was a reflection of me. It is so comforting to know that it isn't. It just means we are different and feel differently about things. There isn't a right or wrong about it. This may seem simplistic to some of you, but for someone like me, it's a huge insight.

The other thing that clicked into place is that I know I did my absolutely best. I couldn't have put more into this book. There was nothing more to give. There's a slogan from the 12 Step program Al-Anon: Take the Action and Let Go of the Result. I love that slogan and I'm using it to remind myself daily that I've done what I could and now I get to let go. Such a feeling of freedom.

For those who missed my blog book tour - I've created an additional page on this blog with all the posts from the tour. There's still one more to come on 11/9. If you're interesting in reading the book I've been writing about all this time, you can find it on Amazon.com, Barnes and Nobel, Kobo, I Tunes. It's called The Wishing Steps.

Till next time,