On Monday's post, the intrepid Helen Ginger couldn't make up her mind if I was her idol or mentor, then finally decided I was a trailblazer. Could have knocked me over with a feather. Truly, I'm just struggling to find my way in this world, trying to be the best person I can be after a lifetime of hurts. The Old Silly says he appreciates my sharing my spiritual journey here on this blog. Well, let me tell you, it's not always easy to share the truth about what I'm feeling, experiencing, and learning. But it seems it is what I am meant to do.
And the writing workshop I attended yesterday emphasized that to me. Mark David Gerson, author of "Voice of the Muse," has been a writing coach for 15+ years. He has a gift. The workshop yesterday profoundly changed how I view writing. In an exercise that included a guided meditation, I had what I can only call an out of body experience. Perhaps you fiction writers experience something like it when your characters talk to you. I've not had that experience before.
When I was in Scotland, what I thought was a character came to me and said, "Tell my story." During the exercise yesterday, this same energy/voice, came through and began giving me guidance for this project. It said not to worry at this point about whether it was my muse or a character. I just needed to surrender to this project. I needed to write in long-hand and transcribe onto the computer later. Some of what it said is quite private, but what I can share is that this next project is another leap into my spiritual journey of healing. When I completed my memoir, I felt as if I'd become the person I'd been striving to be all these years. But yesterday, I understood there is much more depth to be reached. That I couldn't write this next work until I'd done all the work I did on the memoir.
The hardest lesson for me to learn will be to trust the process and trust myself. Trust is hard for me. I didn't get a firm foundation of love and trust growing up. Old feelings from childhood surface unexpectedly and I must be fully present and awake enough to catch them when they bubble, before they erupt.
As Mark David said to me at the end of the session, "It's a journey into trust. Trust that the next word will come. Treat words as breath, flowing as effortlessly as breathing."
Okay then, I am willing to surrender to this journey. Who's coming with me?
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Thank you so much for taking the time to visit. Hope you enjoy your stay. I blog here on Monday and Tuesday. This blog was created at the time my memoir came out, in February, 2009. Its motto was: creating a life of inner peace and self-acceptance from the depths of despair.
"ONLY ONE THING IS MORE FRIGHTENING THAN SPEAKING YOUR TRUTH, AND THAT IS NOT SPEAKING IT." Naomi Wolf
"We are called human beings, not human doings."
Wes Nisker, Buddhist teacher
"The way to do is to be."
"It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs..(And) if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly."