I am a person who likes knowing what's going on. I plan way ahead, making lists, organizing materials, purchasing necessities. I almost never run out of things like toilet paper or ketchup or cereal. So facing a blank page when I sit down to work on either of two novels or the nonfiction piece that are simmering inside me, I am extremely uncomfortable.
In one, I have the three main characters, a seed of an idea for plot, and that's it. The other is only a voice that came to me in Ireland asking me to tell its story. I think it's female. It's whisper was genderless. Bits and pieces are coming in a very disjointed manner and it is disorienting. Yesterday I realized that the nonfiction piece needs to be more personal, not a guide as I originally thought. Just like my memoir, which began as a 700-page self-help tome. Then an editor told me to just "tell my story." Sheesh.
Sunday I did a little ritual around these writing pieces, asking Spirit to guide me. I also made a commitment to trust the process. The first draft is really only discovering what the story is. All I have to do is allow it to emerge, in its own time, in its own way. For someone who likes to be in control, being in this cloud of unknowing is hard. But after my ceremony, I am at least in a place of comfort with the process. It is what it is.
How do you deal with discomfort in your life and/or your writing and/or your work?
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Welcome to Following the Whispers blog
Thank you so much for taking the time to visit. Hope you enjoy your stay. I blog here on Monday and Tuesday. This blog was created at the time my memoir came out, in February, 2009. Its motto was: creating a life of inner peace and self-acceptance from the depths of despair.
"ONLY ONE THING IS MORE FRIGHTENING THAN SPEAKING YOUR TRUTH, AND THAT IS NOT SPEAKING IT." Naomi Wolf
"We are called human beings, not human doings."
Wes Nisker, Buddhist teacher
"The way to do is to be."