Welcome to Following the Whispers blog
Thank you so much for taking the time to visit. Hope you enjoy your stay. I blog here whenever I feel the need. This blog was created at the time my memoir came out, in February, 2009. Its motto was: creating a life of inner peace and self-acceptance from the depths of despair. Now, my focus is sharing this journey we call life.
“Only one thing is more frightening than speaking your truth, and that is not speaking it.” Naomi Wolf
“We are called human beings, not human doings.” Wes Nisker, Buddhist teacher
“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs…(And) if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly.” Theodore Roosevelt
Friday, April 9, 2010
There are things I do trust with absolute certainty: I know I am a good person with good intentions who tries hard to overcome my past and be the best I can be. I know this time I've chosen a partner who loves me unconditionally and is on my side no matter what. I know I did the best I could with my memoir and that it will make it into the hands of those who need it. I know that in each moment I have choices about my thoughts, my behavior and my actions.
Where I am stuck is trusting that I am a storyteller. I told my story in my memoir, but that, I tell myself, is quite different from telling a "made up" story. I don't see myself as a "creative" person. My homework assignment from my writing coach is to find a way to re-connect with the magical child I was, before the sexual abuse, before devastating incidents with my father, before all the things that caused me to shut down so completely that I stopped singing, dancing, drawing, and making up stories. The singing and dancing have long since returned. Now it's time to reclaim my ability to create from nothing.
I need to trust in my ability to do what I need to do as I move through these steps towards writing the pieces that are simmering inside me.
Where in your life do you need to trust more?