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Thank you so much for taking the time to visit. Hope you enjoy your stay. I blog here whenever I feel the need. This blog was created at the time my memoir came out, in February, 2009. Its motto was: creating a life of inner peace and self-acceptance from the depths of despair. Now, my focus is sharing this journey we call life.

“Only one thing is more frightening than speaking your truth, and that is not speaking it.” Naomi Wolf

“We are called human beings, not human doings.” Wes Nisker, Buddhist teacher

“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs…(And) if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly.” Theodore Roosevelt

Monday, July 19, 2010

Monday Musings

A footnote to Friday's post about the VA. It was profoundly moving to perform for vets, their families, and the wonderful caregivers who work at the VA. For our last number, we sang "America" acopella. We'd practiced it many times and I had no emotional reaction, but when we began singing it, I looked out into the audience and saw tears, hands on hearts, heads bowed, and I got so choked up I had to stop singing for a few measures. After the performance, the Public Affairs specialist told me they'd had a hard week at the VA, and we were a breath of fresh air. If I could, I think I'd just go park myself in the lobby and sing all day, if it can bring one moment of sunshine to those dark places in people's hearts.

I'm by myself this week. Hubby is on a business trip to Charlotte, NC. I've had to ask our dog-sitter to come by every morning and evening to give Buddy (our dog) his insulin injections. We don't want me passing out while I'm home alone, do we? I don't think so. But Buddy's doing great - he's blood sugar levels are regulated and he's his peppy self again. Whew!

My writing isn't happening. I'm beginning to be okay with that. I don't know if there is some internal mulching going on, or I need a time out, or what, but I am so working on not judging what I do or don't do, feel or don't feel, think or don't think. Performing has taught me that. We can make mistakes, but the audience doesn't care as long as we show up and give them something of ourselves. If I'm fully present, and sharing myself, if my voice cracks, so what? I've learned to shrug it off. Because truly, in the scheme of things, what matters is being here and being the best we can be in a given moment. And when we're not our best, recognize it, acknowledge it, and move on.

I guess that's enough musing for one morning. What are you musing about today?


Tabitha Bird said...

The three act story structure. I am currently writing my fisr novel after the memoir and I am loving learning about planning and plotting. I have some great links if you want to propel that story of yours into the sky :)

Vicki Rocho said...

Just reading about the audience reaction brought tears to my eyes. (sniff sniff)

There's nothing wrong with taking a break from writing. It'll let you know when it wants out.

Mason Canyon said...

I agree with Vicki about the audience reaction. It brought tears to my eyes too. Great thing you're doing.

Glad Buddy is doing better. Sounds like you've got a lot going now right now. The writing will come when it's time. All that you're doing now will help with that.

Thoughts in Progress

Joanne said...

Sounds like your Friday performance was truly beautiful. I second your sentiment that with the arts, so much of it is about showing up and giving of yourself as the artist. It's an essence that can't be beat, and I definitely recognize it in a good book, a great concert, beautiful paintings. That essence of the artist is clearly present, and evokes such feeling.

Mary@GigglesandGuns said...

When your work knows where it ants to go, it will call.

The audience reaction and your to them brought tears. Thank you for caring.

Giggles and Guns

Anonymous said...

Hey Karen,

Maybe you do need a "time out?" Whenever I'm having trouble with writing, it's usually because I need a break. Of course, I never want to TAKE that break, and having trouble makes me want to work even hard to get words on the paper. But I do think stepping away is the best medicine. (I need to take my own advice!)

Best of luck!

Karen Jones Gowen said...

Trying to stay cool in the heat this summer, catching up on blogs today, and looking forward to my time reading & editing under the ceiling fan!

Jemi Fraser said...

So glad to hear Buddy is doing so well! :)

I'm trying to catch up my blog reading after being away for the weekend!

Elspeth Futcher said...

Thank you for sharing what must have been a very moving moment. I'm so glad you're not giving yourself guilt over not writing your new project right now. It'll come when it comes.

The Old Silly said...

Well you already read MY muse today, lol ... and I really enjoyed yours, too! :)

L. Diane Wolfe said...

Your husband's in Charlotte? He can say hi to Elizabeth - and wave at me. Okay, maybe too far for a wave...

And I used to give our cat Hobbes insulin shots every day. Got it down to a science!

Jane Kennedy Sutton said...

I think the writing will happen again – when the time is right. I guess my musing for the day has been trying o figure out how to add more productive hours - retirement is very time consuming!)

Anonymous said...

I'm musing in amusement. Remember the two typos I found in your memoir? Well, this year, the Center Harbor Librarian, Jon, wrote a booklet about his library building's hundreth birthday, and it was FULL of typos. I found and typed them all up (two and an half pages!) and respectfully submitted them to him. He was SO embarrassed. I assured him I have a gift for finding errors and not to worry about it, but if he republishes, to be sure to incorporate these fixes. He lamented that several libraries close by had an error-filled document with his name on it, and that it had been proof-read by 7 different people before it was published. I told him "If you write something else, I would be glad to proof it for you." He replied "Maybe I'll do a children's version of this booklet." Then he rolled his eyes as if to say "NOT!"

Patricia Stoltey said...

Really good post, Karen. I can imagine the touching scene at the VA Hosp.

I spent a lot of time musing about the writing thing today. Like you, I spent months not working on my manuscripts. Then all of a sudden on Sunday I'm digging in and going to work. I don't know what finally triggered action, but I'm betting it will also happen to you exactly when it's supposed to happen.

Ann said...

I need to take a leaf out of your book and stop criticizing myself for not doing. You are an inspiration to me. Thank you.