Welcome to Following the Whispers blog
Thank you so much for taking the time to visit. Hope you enjoy your stay. I blog here whenever I feel the need. This blog was created at the time my memoir came out, in February, 2009. Its motto was: creating a life of inner peace and self-acceptance from the depths of despair. Now, my focus is sharing this journey we call life.
“Only one thing is more frightening than speaking your truth, and that is not speaking it.” Naomi Wolf
“We are called human beings, not human doings.” Wes Nisker, Buddhist teacher
“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs…(And) if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly.” Theodore Roosevelt
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
A-Z Challenge: D - Difficult Decisions
At 62, I am facing such a limitation. My left knee has stage IV osteoarthritis - there is virtually no cartilage left - bone is on bone. I am a folkdancer - it is something that brings me great joy. And it is the thing that brought hubs and I together - something we share together. If I continue folkdancing, my knee will wear out even faster and I will need total knee replacement much sooner. If I stop, there is no telling how long I can prolong things before needing the surgery.
I have received conflicting information about whether or not I will be able to folkdance after total knee replacement. It hinges on how well the knee can rotate with metal inside it to function.
I am choosing to let go of dancing now and delay the surgery as long as possible. I told hubs we will have to find other things we can do together. There is a deep sadness in thinking I might not ever dance again, but I am also accepting it rather gracefully. I've decided to do something I've wanted to do since I was 8 - take piano lessons.
Perhaps that is a key ingredient in aging. As one thing happens that brings limitation, we can find a substitute. Who knows? Difficult decisions are challenging, to say the least, but if we can find ways to fill the loss which comes from a decision, then maybe they won't be so hard.