I don't know why it happened, but it did. Last Friday, for the first time since I started Sugartime three years ago, I was totally and completely relaxed about everything related to doing a singing gig. In the beginning, it was having people look at me that threw me. I'd get so nervous, I'd stutter and go off pitch or my voice would crack. Then it was the equipment - I am techno-phobic so it took a very long time to understand which wires hook to which piece of equipment and what they all do. Until recently,the equipment still made me nervous because if something didn't work right after it was all hooked up, I didn't know what to do. Then there is the hauling of 14 pieces of equipment down the stairs in my house, into my car, out of my car, into the facility, setting up, tearing it down, putting it back in the car and hauling it home and back up the stairs and setting it up again.
On Friday, absolutely none of this mattered. I was relaxed as we hauled the equipment in, piece by piece (there was no cart to load it onto). I was relaxed as we set up. I was relaxed as we did sound check (which is the most challenging thing we do--trying to get all three headsets at equal volume). And I was more relaxed than ever before while singing.
All I did before I left for the gig was ask that my Light shine, meaning that I be centered inside myself and let my soul light, not my personality issues, shine through. My prayer was answered.
Are you relaxed about the things that are important to you?
Blessings,
Karen
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12 comments:
Delighted you finally hit that point in your career. I've been more relaxed lately, like there's a safety cushion behind me.
Glad that you are learning ways to cope with stress. I relax by meditation which seems to work well for me.
I try to be. I think the more we immerse ourselves in what we're doing, knowing it inside and out, helps make it a part of our soul light, and thus the relaxation follows.
That's a great headspace to be in. Glad you were able to let go and relax. Bet you had an enjoyable time.
Yes, Diane, a safety cushion is a nice way to put it.
Siv, I've been meditating as well - bet that is helping bunches
Joanne, yes, confidence that I know what I'm doing is a piece of it as well
L.G. It is, wish I could bottle it and sprinkle it whenever I need it.
Karen
Karen, I really need to take a page from your book! I'm so pleased you were able to relax and enjoy the moment.
How wonderful! I hope to get tat relaxed soon
Now that I've been practicing with a few friends from church, I hope I can hit that relaxed moment when I have to play guitar in front of others.
Hi Karen .. that's great isn't it - must be a wonderful feeling for you - just being, happy with where you're at .. ok, so you have some equipment - so what ..
You seem to have found your way in life - so pleased for you .. cheers Hilary
Talli, I've got a few years on you, so you have time to figure it out!
Babygirl, me, too
Alex, ooh, I'd love to hear you play
Hilary, I'm finding my way, that's for sure
Karen
When I graduated high school, (back in the dark ages) one of my aunts gave me a necklace with the serenity prayer on it. I know it's considered the prayer for AA, but the words also go a long way toward helping us accept ... i.e. relax ... about the things over which we have no control.
Doesn't feeling good in your own skin absolutely amazing. Yes I am totally relaxed, no worries.
dreamweaver
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