I don't know why it happened, but it did. Last Friday, for the first time since I started Sugartime three years ago, I was totally and completely relaxed about everything related to doing a singing gig. In the beginning, it was having people look at me that threw me. I'd get so nervous, I'd stutter and go off pitch or my voice would crack. Then it was the equipment - I am techno-phobic so it took a very long time to understand which wires hook to which piece of equipment and what they all do. Until recently,the equipment still made me nervous because if something didn't work right after it was all hooked up, I didn't know what to do. Then there is the hauling of 14 pieces of equipment down the stairs in my house, into my car, out of my car, into the facility, setting up, tearing it down, putting it back in the car and hauling it home and back up the stairs and setting it up again.
On Friday, absolutely none of this mattered. I was relaxed as we hauled the equipment in, piece by piece (there was no cart to load it onto). I was relaxed as we set up. I was relaxed as we did sound check (which is the most challenging thing we do--trying to get all three headsets at equal volume). And I was more relaxed than ever before while singing.
All I did before I left for the gig was ask that my Light shine, meaning that I be centered inside myself and let my soul light, not my personality issues, shine through. My prayer was answered.
Are you relaxed about the things that are important to you?
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Thank you so much for taking the time to visit. Hope you enjoy your stay. I blog here on Monday and Tuesday. This blog was created at the time my memoir came out, in February, 2009. Its motto was: creating a life of inner peace and self-acceptance from the depths of despair.
"ONLY ONE THING IS MORE FRIGHTENING THAN SPEAKING YOUR TRUTH, AND THAT IS NOT SPEAKING IT." Naomi Wolf
"We are called human beings, not human doings."
Wes Nisker, Buddhist teacher
"The way to do is to be."
"It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs..(And) if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly."