A few posts ago I wrote about routines, questioning why, when I figure out something that works, I still find it difficult sometimes to make myself do what I know works. Part of it is that I get bored easily. But what it's really about is trust--trusting myself, trusting my process, and trusting the journey. Perhaps if, one day, I don't feel like writing, it just might be that I need more time to mull and allow my subconscious to work. And if I don't feel like exercising, it just might be that my body needs a day off.
There are good reasons I don't trust myself. But they are old reasons. Reasons that no longer matter. I am not the same person who made bad choices. It's time to refresh my internal computer, upload new software, use new applications, hmm, I like this metaphor. Oh how I wish it were that easy to refresh the tapes running through our heads. But bringing them out of the darkness and into the light of awareness is a great first step. So today, I am going to begin to trust myself.
How about you?
Blessings,
Karen
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17 comments:
My problem is not that I get bored, but is that I become interested in too many things and can't get everything done that I'd like and as a consequence a lot gets neglected. I fear that my internal computer is going to crash. Maybe I need to clean out some of the internal programs and downsize.
Lee
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Like Lee I don't get bored but have too many interests, like blogging, blogfest, concerts, travelling and family visiting.
I enjoy all of it and missed blogging terribly whilst I was away last week-end.
Yvonne.
Refreshing just takes practice.
Arlee Bird, sounds good to me.
Yvonne, but I bet you're having so much fun!
Alex, as with everything, practice practice practice.
Karen
At one time in my life, I just threw out my internal computer, completely. Just let it go and didn't look back. Then I started fresh with a new one and forged ahead with my very-own custom designed software. It's been a good choice.
Trust the new you, Karen. You are far wiser now.
All I can say is- well done!
Joanne, that's so courageous. Good for you!
Diane, I am, I am.
Claudia, thank you.
Karen
Good for you! It is hard to trust ourselves - but we've got to keep trying :)
Thank you for writing this. It seems I need to do the same thing. Glad you're trusting yourself again!
Dito with Arlee Bird.
Hi Karen .. you're on the right track and I love everyone's comments - it's not easy to step away from old habits - but bloggers give us that confidence to change, to adapt, to try new things and to test the writing waters here ..
I too have so many things I'd love to do - but hold myself back while my Mama is still alive and do what I can for her without frittering my own life - a difficult balancing act ... I keep in touch with friends and family, sadly life ticks on - but there's not much I can do about that for now. Keep healthy and wise perhaps!!
Cheers and enjoy your weekend .. singing, dancing, relaxing and just smiling with life - Hilary
I'm getting a "Select all delete" feeling from these comments. Might be time to do something completely new. I'm thinking of lyrics to a church song I like "I will teach them a brand new song." Sing a new song, Karen!
So how's that working for you? It's hard to trust in yourself if you have old baggage but it's a journey; not a destination!
...getting ready for the A to Z Challenge so checking out blogs that are involved. It was lovely to meet you!
Catholics have the remedy..it is called offering it up...and it works!!! because it gives a purpose and reason for everything...and that is motivating!!
I am your newest follower..pls follow back if you can.
Great post. I know what you mean.
Hi Karen, Another great post that I can really relate to! I, too, am in the process of uploading new software.
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