I am very hard on myself. Always have been. When I learn something knew, I expect to get it "instantly" and am very impatient with the learning curve. When I don't get it "instantly," I feel flawed and inadequate. In recent years, I have learned to "put down the whips" (a saying from the twelve step programs). But I haven't always been able to do that.
One area in which I am most critical of myself is my singing. I was never trained. I took voice lessons beginning at 55+ years old. Just for fun. Now I am in a trio and singing on key and sounding decent is important. When I had terrible stage fright, I went off pitch quite a lot. Now, not so much. But still, every once in awhile I go flat. I think it's an energy and breathing issue.
Anyway, I was watching gymnastics the other night and these young girls are such amazing athletes and have trained intensively for hours a day, every day, for years for this one moment in time. And even with all that training and all the skill and talent, they make mistakes. And I suddenly got that we are all human, and as such, unless we are recording something over and over until we get it right, when you are live, in the moment, anything can happen. But that doesn't mean they aren't extremely talented, skilled athletes. It just means something happened for them to lose focus or whatever.
Same is true for me. How about you? Are you too hard on yourself?
Let's all practice "putting down the whips."
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Thank you so much for taking the time to visit. Hope you enjoy your stay. I blog here on Monday and Tuesday. This blog was created at the time my memoir came out, in February, 2009. Its motto was: creating a life of inner peace and self-acceptance from the depths of despair.
"ONLY ONE THING IS MORE FRIGHTENING THAN SPEAKING YOUR TRUTH, AND THAT IS NOT SPEAKING IT." Naomi Wolf
"We are called human beings, not human doings."
Wes Nisker, Buddhist teacher
"The way to do is to be."
"It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs..(And) if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly."