Welcome to Following the Whispers blog
Thank you so much for taking the time to visit. Hope you enjoy your stay. I blog here whenever I feel the need. This blog was created at the time my memoir came out, in February, 2009. Its motto was: creating a life of inner peace and self-acceptance from the depths of despair. Now, my focus is sharing this journey we call life.
“Only one thing is more frightening than speaking your truth, and that is not speaking it.” Naomi Wolf
“We are called human beings, not human doings.” Wes Nisker, Buddhist teacher
“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs…(And) if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly.” Theodore Roosevelt
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
I must, however, learn to let go. I carry my own and everyone else's "stuff" in my body. In particular, in my neck and shoulders. They are so tense. I find myself with shoulders hunched up most of the time. Then I catch myself and let them go, but the pain remains.
I know I have to let go. I can listen, but I can't take it in me. When it's someone extremely close, however, that is much more difficult. But I can no longer continue doing things the way I have been. The stress is really impacting my health. This a-fib problem with my heart is definitely stress induced. And so, I imagine, is the asthma. I need to stop trying so hard in everything I do and simply let.......go.
How about you?
Monday, February 25, 2013
By the time we got there, it had been four hours since the symptoms began. Of course, as soon as they hooked me up to the EKG, the symptoms disappeared and the test results were normal. However, the doc, who has been an ER doc for 40 years, said I probably have a-fib, irregular heart beat that comes on sporadically. If I had other symptoms, I would need to get to the doctor, but as of right now, I'm okay. I'm going to my primary care doc anyway, just in case.
But the other thing he said, when he listened to my heart, is that I was wheezing, which I knew, but was ignoring. I've been dealing with mucus in my throat and a dry cough forever. He just looked at me and said, "You have asthma." Now that was not a diagnosis I had heard before.
I will talk to the primary care doc about that as well, along with my alternative guy. I do not want to take steroids.
So, my message to you, dear friends, is to be grateful for your good health and whatever blessings you have going on. This isn't life threatening, but it's scary to be turning 64 and to know I might have a heart issue I have to watch.
Friday, February 22, 2013
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
It's back. Only worse. I've been seeing a chiropractor and last week I went for an acupuncture treatment. When I researched online the possible causes of this, MS was one of them. I really don't think that's what it is. I think it's nerve related from a pain in my neck between my neck and shoulder blade. But I'm worried because it's not getting better.
And one other dilemma. I have severe mucus in my throat. No traditional doc or alternative healer has been able to help me resolve this issue. It affects my singing. Big time. I am so so frustrated.
I researched this as well and found something online I've ordered. We'll see.In the meantime, I'm doing sinus rinses, saline nasal sprays, gargling with warm salt water and watching what I eat, because certain foods definitely make it worse.
Oy. I promise, I'm not letting these things get me down. I just wanted to vent a little.
Anyone else feel like venting?d It's tell the truth Tuesday, after all.
P.S. - an update - Last night I had my first night without numbness and tingling. Seems the acupuncture treatment really made a difference. Yippee!!
Monday, February 18, 2013
Well, it's many years from when that song came out and I was singing it and now I'm older and losing my hair. Who would've thought? When we're young, we feel pretty invincible and it's hard to imagine being old.
Did I tell you about the last time I went to a concert? I was standing in the lobby with my girlfriends and looking at the people coming to the performance and said, "look at all these old people still coming to concerts," and then I realized I was one of them. Oy!
Having taken care of my elderly parents, my mother-in-law, my girlfriend's mom, and my now 91-year old dear friend, I know what I am facing. Right now I feel healthier than I've ever felt. Really, I mean ever, because I became overweight at 20 years old and stayed that way till about four years ago.
So, now what? Well, first I'm going to get working on the second draft of my novel. I'm going to keep singing with Sugartime as long as I have a decent voice. I'm going to folk dance with my hubby every once in awhile (my knee prevents me from doing it every week like I used to). I'm going to keep eating healthily and exercising whenever possible. I'm going to hang out with friends, because that makes me happy. And I'm going to focus on one day at a time instead of worrying about what will happen as I continue this aging process.
Now what's in store for you?
Friday, February 15, 2013
I am celebrating several things this week. Getting the first draft done is one. My son had something wonderful happen in his life. And my singing group, Sugartime, is beginning a new leaf. We are now a dynamic duo, rather than a trio. And I finished helping my 91-year-old friend get moved into assisted living and her old house packed up and emptied so it can be sold. Whew! That's a lot.
Oh, and it was hubby's birthday and Valentine's Day.
What are you celebrating in your life?
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
About six months ago, I went to an alternative healer - a chiropractor/kinesthesiologist (muscle testing). I went because I have a chronic hoarseness and it affected my singing.The traditional western docs tested me up the ying yang and nothing was revealed that helped.
During that first visit I mentioned being hypoglycemic and that I became extremely irritable and anxious if I didn't eat every few hours. He put me on a supplement to balance my blood sugar and my life has changed dramatically for the better. In addition to that, he said my adrenal system wasn't functioning properly (which would affect metabolism). Over the next few months, I lost an additional 15 pounds and now, I can pretty much eat what I want and not gain weight. It's pretty miraculous.
I spent about 60 seconds feeling sorry for myself that I spent so many years being overweight and thinking I was flawed because I couldn't maintain a weight loss. I have learned to eat healthier and exercise, which is a huge part of being a healthy weight. But if something is wrong with your metabolism, that's a whole other story.
Now I am just grateful I found someone who helped with this huge issue. We're still working on the chronic hoarseness - it's better but not totally resolved. I'll keep you posted...(lol).
Have you struggled with a long-time problem and found alternative solutions when nothing traditional worked?
Monday, February 11, 2013
How about you? How do you handle change?
Friday, February 8, 2013
How about you?
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
I'm not insecure this month - I just haven't had time to write. I am not a happy camper when I'm not writing, so I've made it a priority once again. Writing time is going on my calendar at least three times a week. Sacred. Not to be interfered with. It's not that I'm complaining. Life happens. Two back to back bouts of bronchitis and other responsibilities that needed to be dealt with - that stuff just happens. But the longer it goes on that writing isn't a priority, the less likelihood there is of me returning to it with the commitment and energy it needs and deserves.
How about you? Does anything interfere with your writing time?
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
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Monday, February 4, 2013
How about you? Do you need down time?