Welcome to Following the Whispers blog
Thank you so much for taking the time to visit. Hope you enjoy your stay. I blog here whenever I feel the need. This blog was created at the time my memoir came out, in February, 2009. Its motto was: creating a life of inner peace and self-acceptance from the depths of despair. Now, my focus is sharing this journey we call life.
“Only one thing is more frightening than speaking your truth, and that is not speaking it.” Naomi Wolf
“We are called human beings, not human doings.” Wes Nisker, Buddhist teacher
“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs…(And) if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly.” Theodore Roosevelt
Monday, August 19, 2013
Monday Musings: getting down to the basics
What I am doing is working on acceptance. Yes, I am now someone with heart and thyroid disease when before I was very healthy. But meds can manage both of these things. So I will still be a very healthy person. The med I have to take is not an easy drug. I am praying I don't have any adverse side effects and that it does, indeed, regulate my heart.
But the other thing this diagnosis has done is force me to think even deeper about the rest of my life and what I want and need. I definitely need to finish my novel and figure out what to do with it once it's done. I definitely want to keep singing with Sugartime as long as the voice and the body and the energy hold up. But more importantly, I want to heal the connections between the people most important in my life. I want to not be afraid to be myself, flaws and all, and to know that even when I make mistakes, I am loved. I want to feel safe in an unsafe world. And I want to continue to grow spiritually.
My heart issues are not immediately life threatening. However, if I don't treat the irregular beats now, it will be. I have made a decision not to live the rest of my life afraid that I will have a heart attack or stroke. I intend to live the rest of my life full out, giving my best to everything I do. That's all any of can really expect of ourselves, isn't it?
How about you?