As many of you know, I've had a health diagnosis that sort of blind-sided me. It's taken awhile for me to come to terms with it. In other words, to accept this new reality. It means I've gone from someone who, at 64, took no medication whatsoever, to someone who needs meds for both thyroid and heart.
That made me think about where I am at 64 and where I still want to be.
In my memoir, there's a part of my story where I am driving through the Mojave Desert after yet another relationship ended and I am filled with despair and no longer want to go on, not just driving, but living. A voice whispers, "You're not done yet, Karen."
I am hearing that voice again. I am not done, even though I am slowing down. I don't have the stamina I once had. I need more down time than ever before. I've thought about the aging process a lot since I have first-hand experience caring for my aging dad and mother-in-law, until they died. I also having elderly friends I do some caregiving for.
What I've observed is that aging is a lot about coming to terms with reality. The body starts to give out. Things don't function as they used to and eventually stop functioning at all. Some things can keep functioning with medications. Others with procedures. But eventually, there will be nothing that can be done about the malfunctioning parts. We all get to make choices what to do in those cases.
So aging is about accepting limitations. And letting go of who we used to be and what we used to be able to do. I think, if we allow ourselves to, it is an opportunity to become more deeply spiritual human beings, instead of human doers. I am trying to incorporate that awareness into my life now, so that as this aging process continues, I am more and more comfortable with the limitations and losses that will most definitely come.
How about you?
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Thank you so much for taking the time to visit. Hope you enjoy your stay. I blog here on Monday and Tuesday. This blog was created at the time my memoir came out, in February, 2009. Its motto was: creating a life of inner peace and self-acceptance from the depths of despair.
"ONLY ONE THING IS MORE FRIGHTENING THAN SPEAKING YOUR TRUTH, AND THAT IS NOT SPEAKING IT." Naomi Wolf
"We are called human beings, not human doings."
Wes Nisker, Buddhist teacher
"The way to do is to be."
"It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs..(And) if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly."