Welcome to Following the Whispers blog
Thank you so much for taking the time to visit. Hope you enjoy your stay. I blog here whenever I feel the need. This blog was created at the time my memoir came out, in February, 2009. Its motto was: creating a life of inner peace and self-acceptance from the depths of despair. Now, my focus is sharing this journey we call life.
“Only one thing is more frightening than speaking your truth, and that is not speaking it.” Naomi Wolf
“We are called human beings, not human doings.” Wes Nisker, Buddhist teacher
“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs…(And) if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly.” Theodore Roosevelt
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
Telling the Truth Tuesday: mind/body connection
It was around February that I finished the drafts of my book. Or so I thought. Really, I thought I'd done everything I needed to do on it. If you read my post yesterday you already know that I most certainly had not. February is when my health started to decline. While talking to a friend recently, I remembered that when I was a kid, I used to pretend to be sick if I didn't want to go to school. I got symptoms down so I could fool my mother. Then, as I grew up, I would get sick (for real) if I didn't want to do something. The aha moment came when I realized I'd gotten sick right around the time I finished my book because deep down inside, I knew I wasn't done. And I knew that what I had to do to make this book what it needs to be is damned hard. The subject matter is intense and I have to go deeper inside myself and allow myself inside these characters and I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS.
My editor said to me, "I know how deep you've already gone so if you don't want to do this, it's okay." And I said, "I've always known that this book is my spiritual journey and my spiritual journey is this book. I can't not do it."
So, I still don't feel well, and I probably won't feel better until I begin the extensive revisions that are needed on my manuscript. I just can't face it quite yet...
How about you?