Welcome to Following the Whispers blog
Thank you so much for taking the time to visit. Hope you enjoy your stay. I blog here whenever I feel the need. This blog was created at the time my memoir came out, in February, 2009. Its motto was: creating a life of inner peace and self-acceptance from the depths of despair. Now, my focus is sharing this journey we call life.
“Only one thing is more frightening than speaking your truth, and that is not speaking it.” Naomi Wolf
“We are called human beings, not human doings.” Wes Nisker, Buddhist teacher
“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs…(And) if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly.” Theodore Roosevelt
Monday, November 11, 2013
Monday Musings: Finding help when you need it
Two things happened Friday to bring things into alignment for me. One was a session with someone I'll simply call a healer. She is a Ph.D. and uses a number of tools and resources when she works with a client. In that session, we arrived at a core issue of mine that causes me to shift into a negative space when good things happen. That is an over-simplification, but I can't go into the details in a blog post. I was overwhelmed and exhausted after that session, but I had scheduled the first session with my writing coach, Mark David Gerson, http://markdavidmuse.blogspot.com, and wasn't going to cancel.
Mark David wrote my favorite book on writing, The Voice of the Muse, a vastly different approach to writing than anything I'd read before, but one that resonates with me on a very deep level. I had several things going on: my health deteriorated back in February when I suddenly developed A-Fib and Thyroid disease at the same time. As a result, I was tired, irritable, losing my hair, mentally confused, and gaining weight, which made me depressed. I also finished the first draft of my novel. At the same time, I began having throat problems and singing was more and more difficult.
Fast forward to a few weeks ago. I had completed several more drafts of the book and decided it was done. I simply needed an editor who would guide me through revisions. Mark David said some things to me after reading the manuscript that pushed me into that negative space I referred to earlier. What I heard (not what he said, mind you, but what I heard) was that I needed to completely re-write the book. And there was no way I was going to do that, so I got more depressed. Four years down the drain, yada yada yada.
Friday, at our meeting, I was finally able to hear what he really said, which is that there is a difference between story and making a story into a book. My story is complete, but it's not yet a book. I don't want to say too much about the particulars, because I would give away too much of what my book is about, but suffice it to say, just as I needed to open myself up to the voice that came to me in Ireland and Scotland asking me to tell her story, I need to open myself up to the energy of the book that wants to be brought into the world. It is not a re-write. It is an expanding of what is already there.
The hard part is injecting the emotional realism into the characters, because as we all know, we feel whatever it is our characters are feeling.
Oh, and the last piece. I truly belief my health issues are related to not wanting to do this hard work. All my life, the essence of who I am was suppressed for a number of reasons. This book really represents that essence and to suppress it means to suppress me. We always have a choice, but to choose not to write this book would have serious consequences for me.
So there you have it. Sorry it was such a long post. Hope you hung in there with me.And hopefully, as always, I hope that sharing my trials and tribulations and successes, just might help someone else out there with theirs.
Blessings to all of you.