Welcome to Following the Whispers blog
Thank you so much for taking the time to visit. Hope you enjoy your stay. I blog here whenever I feel the need. This blog was created at the time my memoir came out, in February, 2009. Its motto was: creating a life of inner peace and self-acceptance from the depths of despair. Now, my focus is sharing this journey we call life.
“Only one thing is more frightening than speaking your truth, and that is not speaking it.” Naomi Wolf
“We are called human beings, not human doings.” Wes Nisker, Buddhist teacher
“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs…(And) if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly.” Theodore Roosevelt
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
A few years ago I got an Android phone. I didn't like it much and found I wasn't using any of the bells and whistles. So when I started wanting the iPhone recently, I was puzzled. But when I went to talk to the folks at the store, they said lots of folks felt that way about the Droid back then. It wasn't easy to use. They've improved a lot since then. But I'm an Apple girl - have an iPod Touch and a Macbook pro and love them, so if I'm going to get a smart phone, it will be an iPhone.
The thing is, I don't "need" it. But I've learned that it's okay to want things that you don't need. Where I get stuck is deciding whether to give in to the want or not. Are there certain reasons whereby it is okay to allow yourself to get what you want? I will not go into debt to get what I want. I believe in credit card use only if I can pay the bill at the end of the month.
How do you decide whether to gift yourself with the things you want or do you just go for it?
I did it. I got one. Now I have to figure out how to use it!!
Monday, February 24, 2014
On Friday I went to the mineral spring resort for the first time in about two years. The day was lovely and I was relaxed and happy. Until my heart started beating irregularly for the first time in months. At first I tried to ignore it, thinking maybe I was just imagining things. But it persisted into the night and the next day as well. By Sunday it had started to calm down. But I hadn't. I really thought, because it hadn't happened in so long, the issue was resolved. So I went on the internet and googled hot tubs and arrhythmia. Lo and behold, there are articles that caution against using them if you have heart issues. Something about the blood vessels contracting and diverting their energy to the skin, dehydration, and electrolyte imbalance.
Although I am sad that I no longer feel comfortable soaking in hot water if it is going to cause my heart to go awry, I am grateful that I think I found the reason the irregularity started up again. Keeping my fingers crossed that my system will get back in balance and stay there once again.
How about you? Have you had to give up something you love?
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
I love tuna fish with mayonnaise and celery. It's a comfort food for me. I haven't been able to eat it for years because I can't eat mayonnaise. But recently I found a dairy-free, soy-free, organic vegannaise product that tastes just as good as mayo and I have been enjoying tuna fish again. Until a health provider told me I shouldn't have it too often because it has too much mercury.
Everyone says you should get enough fiber - eat those fruits and veggies, but than a health provider tells me fruit has too much sugar so eat less. And it's hard to do grains if you have problems digesting wheat and gluten.
Dr. Oz has a two-week weight reduction program that is very healthy, but it has Greek yogurt on it, which I can't have.
Sigh! What's a girl to do. I am in the process of designing a food program for me that will list several breakfasts, lunches and dinners I can choose from so I don't make myself nuts trying to decide what to eat all the time and obsessing about whether it's healthy, whether I'm going to lose or gain, or whether I'm going to have a sensitivity to a particular food.
But every once in awhile I am going to eat whatever I damned well feel like eating and hang the consequences
How about you?
Monday, February 17, 2014
I am still struggling a bit with my energy level--meaning I have very little. It is adrenal fatigue. But my doc is wonderful and we are working on it diligently. There is already progress with this physician--my heart much improved, as is my thyroid. So I am cautiously optimistic that the adrenals will wake up and start doing what they need to be doing very soon.
I feel somewhat disconnected from the blogging community because there is so much buzz around the A-Z challenge and once again this year I won't be participating. There are two reasons. One, I'll be gone for the first 10 days of April. The second, I really really really don't want to blog six days a week and feel obligated to visit as many blogs as possible. That is so much pressure and my poor little heart just can't take any additional pressure right now. But it's hard to watch all the excitement building and know how much fun it will be for those who do join. I will cheer heartily from the sidelines.
Well, that's all that's on my mind this morning.
How about you?
Tuesday, February 11, 2014
It is mesmerizing, inspiring, brilliantly acted, and simply exquisite. I know that's a lot of adjectives that really say nothing except that I loved it. But the message I got from watching this (based on a true story) shifted something in me that has needed shifting for a long time. With the right support, loving care and attention, absolute honesty, and humor, you can accept just about anything and still have a full, enriching life.
Monday, February 10, 2014
Friday, February 7, 2014
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Wednesday, February 5, 2014
I want to share some good news about my writing. I am making very good progress. I just completed a series of meditations with the characters, and once I added the things they wanted included in the story, my word count went from 30,000 to 40,000.
My next step will be to do meditations on setting and then go back through the book and flush that out as well. At that point, I will take a small break, regroup, and then re-read the book out loud. If I am satisfied, it will go to my editor.
I never dreamed I would be writing a novel and I had no idea how challenging it would be. My memoir took 10 years (but that included a four-year semi-hiatus while I went back to school to complete a college degree). I am now into year five of this book. Thank goodness I consider the writing of this book to be my spiritual journey because otherwise I would feel quite insecure about it taking so long.
Well, that's all folks. Till next time....
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Tuesday, February 4, 2014
The bad news - I have insomnia. It is not fun. You lie there with your eyes closed, expecting to drift off to sleep at any moment. Instead, you are singing songs in your head, redoing conversations you had earlier, writing essays, planning trips, doing your shopping list, worrying about your health, trying to figure out a solution to a problem. When you try to stop the thoughts, they only get worse. Trying to meditate doesn't work either. You've been told not to get up and get on the computer because the light isn't good for promoting sleep, but after hours of these non-stop thoughts, you must do something to distract yourself. And spider solitaire fits the bill.
What causes insomnia on some nights and not others, I wonder. Will I ever be a person who gets a good night sleep on a regular basis again? I used to be such a good sleeper.