Welcome to Following the Whispers blog
Thank you so much for taking the time to visit. Hope you enjoy your stay. I blog here whenever I feel the need. This blog was created at the time my memoir came out, in February, 2009. Its motto was: creating a life of inner peace and self-acceptance from the depths of despair. Now, my focus is sharing this journey we call life.
“Only one thing is more frightening than speaking your truth, and that is not speaking it.” Naomi Wolf
“We are called human beings, not human doings.” Wes Nisker, Buddhist teacher
“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs…(And) if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly.” Theodore Roosevelt
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
I had such low self esteem I couldn't understand why and for the longest time, didn't trust his love. But it never wavered. Today, I am 50+ pounds lighter, have healthy friendships, depression is fleeting if it comes at all, I still earn no money, and I have a very close relationship with my son. In addition, I have the opportunity to do two things that fill my soul with joy--sing and write.
What if I hadn't listened to the voice of wisdom that whispered to me that I should give this man a chance? My whole life has become about tuning into that wisdom and listening. Sometimes I am successful. Sometimes I'm not. But more and more, I am trusting this journey called life. And on this particular day, I am celebrating 19 years of marriage with a man I am so lucky to call my husband.
Monday, February 23, 2015
Feeling the need for a retreat. A writing retreat. No distractions. Not sure I can make it happen, but I'm going to try. Need to get this re-write going with some renewed energy.
Tomorrow is our 19th wedding anniversary. Never thought I'd find a partner where I feel so loved and nurtured and cared for. I am counting my blessings for the life I have.
In the meantime, what's going on in your world?
Tuesday, February 17, 2015
I'm not saying I've been an unloving wife. I do lots of loving things for him. But this one is hard because the space around me is important. The other day I heard a couple who had been married 60 years interviewed. He said, "it's all about compromise, but not 50-50 comprise. It's 100%-100% - all the time." Hmmm........
Monday, February 16, 2015
I now have 10,000+ words on the re-write of Part III of my novel. I can't tell yet if it's better than the original, but I know I got a clear message that it needed to be re-written. Oy!
I have arranged several interviews for the nonfiction piece I began four years ago.
I was felled by a flu last Wednesday and lost the rest of the week but today is a new day and I am ready to go.
On the home front:
I am getting used to the new arrangement of our home, with the pool table in the living room. I really like the new living room, which, depending on the moment and my mood, I am calling the parlor or the den. It's cozy. The room is much smaller than I thought and several pieces from our original living room could not fit. So of course, now we have to have a garage sale. Which, of course, we can't do until we go through the other rooms, trying to eliminate clutter.
On the travel front:
My hubby is not much of a reader, except for train magazines and Harry Potter. He loved the Harry Potter series and has been wanting to go to Universal Studios in Orlando since the Harry Potter exhibit opened. We have a special friend who is graduating high school in May and she also wanted to go see this particular exhibit. She will also ride roller coasters with hubs, which I will not do after the last time I went on the Cyclone at Coney Island and nearly had a heart attack. So we are taking her for her graduation present. Can't wait.
How about you? What's going on in your world?
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
How about you? How's your space? Too much stuff? Don't mind the clutter?
Monday, February 9, 2015
Sooo, I got this hare-brained idea to make our living room, which is a much larger room, into a game room. Weird that when you walk into our house you will now walk into a room with a pool table, a piano, and a card/game table and the former pool-table room, which is in the back of the house, will be a cozy living room/den/. It took us all day Saturday to take stuff out of cabinets and bookshelves, shampoo the rugs and put stuff in the garage we don't know what to do with now. Tomorrow, the moving guys are coming to move the furniture. we didn't want to risk hurting our friends' backs.
All because I decided I needed to clear out space, both internally and externally My poor poor hubby.
Are you like me? Are your significant others like me? Oy!
Wednesday, February 4, 2015
I am jazzed about re-discovering a project I began 4 years ago. I am not ready to talk about it just yet but when I reread what I had done, I thought--damn - this could be really good! There, I am not feeling insecure about this one at all.
Now, my novel. That's a different story. I am re-writing the entire third part of the book. I haven't had much time over the last month because of my friend's death and being executor, yada yada yada. But that's not the whole reason. It's because it's hard. And I have to really take myself to a meditative, deep place to allow the real story to come through. And, although I know I will do this, it's hard to make myself do it. And there's always that niggling voice that doubts.
So, wish me luck, just as I wish all of you luck with your writing insecurities.
Tuesday, February 3, 2015
But if I stop and allow myself to breathe and take a time out, I know that I can do everything if I just focus on one baby step at a time. Not think about all the projects. Just one part of one project at a time.
Ahhh. Tummy calms down. Heart beats normally. Brain doesn't feel fogged. Energy flows freely through my body.
How about you? How do you manage time?
Monday, February 2, 2015
Things with my friend's estate are moving along and are not totally overtaking my life any more. Whew!
I started dancing around my living room several times a week (notice I am NOT calling this exercise).
I think I can now safely say my heart procedure worked. I feel so much better than I have in two years. Now I just need to get in better shape!
I am aching to get back to re-writing Part III of my novel. I am hoping I can carve out some time next week.
What are musing about today?