Welcome to Following the Whispers blog
Thank you so much for taking the time to visit. Hope you enjoy your stay. I blog here whenever I feel the need. This blog was created at the time my memoir came out, in February, 2009. Its motto was: creating a life of inner peace and self-acceptance from the depths of despair. Now, my focus is sharing this journey we call life.
“Only one thing is more frightening than speaking your truth, and that is not speaking it.” Naomi Wolf
“We are called human beings, not human doings.” Wes Nisker, Buddhist teacher
“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs…(And) if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly.” Theodore Roosevelt
Friday, December 4, 2015
the writing journey - part 4
Make a commitment to writing this story. Even if it's just five minutes a day. Find my own way each moment of each day. Be open to change. If something was working for awhile and then it stops working, change. Commitment is to stay connected to the process.
This was hard for me because I am a control freak and the story that was wanting to emerge made me feel out of control. I had to become willing to let go. The way I felt safe in the world was to be in control. I had to surrender to a higher consciousness.
Another thing that emerged around this same time was my inability to acknowledge my little successes. I began a journal, noting everything worthy of acknowledgement and found a way to reward myself that didn't include food. Buy a book, give myself a gold star and when I get to 10, buy something for myself, even if it's just as simple as downloading a song from iTunes. It became very important for me to acknowledge the ways I was moving forward, both with the story and in my personal growth. This included acknowledging missteps and learning not to beat myself up.
The lesson here for me was about losing control and holding my center and trusting myself - surrendering control to God. I had to learn that in doing this, I wasn't losing anything.
I also learned that I'll never be perfect. I recognized my own humanity. I could write from the negative place and channel what was going on with me onto the page. I could turn darkness into light on the page. Every piece of writing fed something else.
Writing my memoir reclaimed my power - my next step was to learn to stay in it. Writing the novel was my way to do that.
To be continued...