HAPPY HOLIDAYS

Wishing everyone in bloggy land a very happy and joyous holiday season. May your lives be filled with peace and joy and love.
Blessings
Karen

Not sure what to do

Hello bloggyland,
Wow, I took a summer hiatus and just realized it's almost Thanksgiving and I haven't posted once.
I'm not sure what to do. I really miss all of you and knowing what's happening in your worlds, but blogging just doesn't seem to be on my mind these days. In fact, I'm not doing any writing at all. I'm back home in New Mexico and only go visit my twin grand babies very six weeks or so for a few days at a time, but it seems my life is really full whether I'm in Albuquerque or Baltimore.  I guess I need it to be okay for now that I'm not posting.
Wishing you all a very Happy Thanksgiving and many many blessings to you and your families.
Karen

Summer hiatus

It's been awhile since I've written a post other than to say I'm not writing, but I wanted to let you know that I'm going to be caring for my twin grandbabies all of July, August and September and I know I won't have time to post, so I'm going to take a summer hiatus from blogging and hopefully return late September, when I get home to Albuquerque.

I can't wait to be with those two little munchkins full time again. Since I've been away I feel as if a limb is missing. Wish I could post pics, but parents have decided no photos on internet and I respect that (and agree with it) other than I wish you could see how adorable they are!

Wishing you all a fun-filled, happy summer and I'll catch up with everyone in the Fall.

Blessings,
Karen

Insecure Writer's Support Group - June

Hi dear friends,
I'm just posting a quick notice to say hi and let you all know I'm still here but as of this writing, I'm not writing. Life has taken a different turn, but I'm still visiting y'all when I can and trying to stay connected.
Blessings,
Karen

Insecure Writer's Support Group - May

It's time once again for Alex's Insecure Writer's Support Group www.alexjcavanaugh.blogspot.com, a wonderful place where writers come together and share their experience, strength and hope with each other.

I almost feel like I don't belong here anymore. I am so disconnected from everything I've known in my life while I am caring for my twin grandbabies. I'm not writing. I'm not singing. I'm not dancing. I'm not with my friends. I am simply with these wonderful babies, loving and nurturing them as best I can. My husband realized that we only have three more weekends here with my son and his family before we head home and my heart and my arms are already aching.   So here's where my insecurity lies this month. Do I leave the very wonderful life hubby and I have built and move closer to our grandchildren or do we find a way to visit often? It's expensive to fly back and forth -I don't know how much we can do that. What I know for sure is that we want to be part of these babies lives for as long as we're around, and having just turned 69, who knows how long that will be. I'm not being morbid or negative here, just realistic. So we have a lot to think about when we get home. I'm feeling so pulled apart by this decision. And that's where I'm at, folks...
How about you?
Blessings
Karen

Insecure Writers Support Group - April

I'm back home in NM for a week - a break from caring for the now 4-month-old twin grandbabies. Hubby and I are having so much fun taking care of these two little munchkins. I love seeing what new things they discover each day - a hand, a foot, each other. One rolled over from her tummy to her back the other day - the next day the other one did it. It's hard for me to imagine them crawling, then walking, then running, and talking. I have my insecurity around being an older grandparent and just how long I'll be around to watch them grow into the beings they are meant to be, but I tell myself to enjoy each moment and stay in the present. I do want to begin writing to them, but while I'm caring for them, there's no energy for that.

Stay tuned and blessings....
Karen

Insecure Writer's Support Group - March

Here is something I wrote when I found out my son and his wife were to have twins. I thought I'd share it for this month's posting since it's the first thing I've written in a very long time.

The grandmas I’ve known in my life are my own, of course, and those of my friends. And now I have several family members and friends who are grandmas. I’ve watched them with their grandchildren and wished to have one someday, but, frankly, I’d given up on that dream. My son is 44 and is busy building his business and there’s been no talk of babies.

Until the phone call when he asked what my hubby was doing and for him to get on the phone. The moment when we learned we were going to be grandparents. Of twins!

In that moment, we only knew about one of you - a boy. I could almost feel you in my arms as I thought about you growing inside your mommy. Your daddy was the happiest I’ve ever heard him as he told us how far along you were and when you were due to come into this world. 

I immediately wanted to make you something special, and tho’ I’m not crafty, I asked a friend to teach me to knit so i could make you a baby blanket. It has lots of beautiful colors and makes me happy thinking of wrapping you in it and holding you in my arms.

Then, a few weeks later, we learned you would have a twin sister. Ahh, the colors I chose will be great for either one of you. My dear friend, Clara, is making a blanket, too. 

The universe in which I have lived my life up until now has shifted with the news of your coming. I have come to call my new world Grandmaland. It is a land where I see babies everywhere I look and I smile, knowing in a few short months, I will be holding you both in my arms and pouring all the love I have in my soul onto you. It is a land where I think about how I will make sure I see you often and how I want everything to be perfect in your universe and knowing it won’t be. It can’t because there’s no such thing. 

What you need to know is that you are loved. Oh how you are loved. By your mommy. By your daddy. My your daddy’s mom (that’s me) and dad  and your daddy’s stepdad and your daddy’s stepmom . And your mommy’s mom  and your mommy’s dad. And all your aunts and uncles and great aunts and uncles. And cousins. And friends of your mommy’s and daddy’s and friends of your grandparents. There are so many people waiting to welcome you into the world and love you and help you on your journey once you arrive.

Grandmaland. A land in which I wait and pray and hope and hold you in the Light and Love of Spirit.