Welcome to Following the Whispers blog
Thank you so much for taking the time to visit. Hope you enjoy your stay. I blog here whenever I feel the need. This blog was created at the time my memoir came out, in February, 2009. Its motto was: creating a life of inner peace and self-acceptance from the depths of despair. Now, my focus is sharing this journey we call life.
“Only one thing is more frightening than speaking your truth, and that is not speaking it.” Naomi Wolf
“We are called human beings, not human doings.” Wes Nisker, Buddhist teacher
“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs…(And) if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly.” Theodore Roosevelt
Wednesday, October 4, 2017
Insecure Writer's Support Group - October
Anyway, here we are at the first Wednesday of the month, which means another opportunity to share about our writing journey, thanks to Alex at www.alexjcavanaugh.blogspot.com, who created this wonderful group.
I haven't written anything since my anthology came out. I'm not sure why. My energy has just been elsewhere -- on my singing duo, Sugartime, on becoming a grandma to twins in a few months, on travel. I debated about dropping out of this group, since it is called
the Insecure Writer's Support Group, but I realized that when who you are is a writer, you're a writer whether you're actually writing or not. What I mean by being a writer is that I think writers move through the world in very different ways than folks who don't write. For me, I'm all about the history (backstory) peoples' stories (characterization) and what has happened to them in their lives (plot). So, I'm not going to drop out. Instead, I'll talk about what I'm insecure about - my weight. I've gained 20 pounds over the last three years. For those of you who don't know, I spent most of my adult love somewhat obese. When I met my husband I weighed 183 pounds (I'm only 5'3) so that's pretty big.
I lost and gained many times since my twenties, but in 2009, I lost 60 pounds and kept it off for years. So when it started coming back on without me changing the way I'd been eating to maintain, it was very disturbing. Now it's even more upsetting. I realized my weight is just a symptom of a much deeper insecurity about my looks and how I feel about myself. So this is a good thing that it's reared it's ugly head again so that I can have an opportunity to heal it.
I am working with someone and am making slow but steady progress. Thank goodness I've done enough work on myself to know that how I look isn't who I am. And that who I am is a loving, kind person.
Anyway, I could probably write a book on this subject (ha, maybe that's my next writing project), but this is a blog post, so I'll end here.
What are you feeling insecure about in your life?